I do not know how to say good-bye. I do not want to but I guess its time for me to do just that, if its possible. I love each and every one of you. I have cried with you, been mad at some, went through bad, good, and even scary times with you. I have experienced all of it with you from tears of sadness to tears of joy.

This time there will be no train ride that stops this nightmare, no going back. The train stops here and everyone will go their separate ways. I will still be stuck here exactly where I have always been. In the same exact place that you saved me from. The only difference this time is there will be nothing that can or will save me. Full of pain and hatred for the person who caused this to happen and eventually the hatred will win out.

They have taken everything away from me, all of you, my sanity, my happiness, my reason to live. There is one thing that they can never take from me and that is the love I have for you. I feel there is nothing left to fight for but there has to be some justice to be had. So I will fight until the day I die for the one thing that has made me happier than anything. You are my one true love and that will not change or ever go away. It will not ease with time either.

You will be in my heart forever, never to be forgotten. My love and devotion will remain the same for all of eternity. Rest in peace for now my love, until we meet again. Because we all know that dead doesnt always mean dead in Port Charles.

Niki